Week 23 – Retreat, rest and replenish…

The course is over for this year… but life is just beginning… taking everything I’ve learnt and practiced… and embodying it in my life. Towards the end of the course we were encouraged to take time out of our busy lives and go on retreat for a few days. I couldn’t organise it at that time but have just had the opportunity to do it now… I removed myself from my usual life for nearly three days… and finished yesterday.

I left my laptop and modem turned off so no emails, Zoom or Facebook… I turned off my mobile phone so no phone calls or texting… no television or movies… no radio or music… no contact with family, friends or anyone for that matter… other than… me. During this time… life was very simple… every day I rose… did my practice, bathed, ate, walked… read a little bit of Master Keys or related material… and that was it. I didn’t do any housework or let my mind think about the things I needed to do… I just allowed myself to be. It was very nourishing… gave me time and space to connect with myself… without trying to control or resist anything… without having to be anywhere… without having to do anything for anyone else… there was a real sense of peace… and freedom.

In Emerson’s Self-Reliance essay he talks about… “the great man (… or woman) is he (… or she) who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude”. I aim to do that now… as I slowly return to my “normal” life… take that sense of peace and freedom with me… my world within creates my world without. This experience makes me even more certain and clear about my DMP… creating a haven for others from our frantic and disconnected world… see my Press Release for more details.

I have decided I am going to give myself this retreat time at least once a year from now on… maybe twice a year… and for as many days as possible. I can thoroughly recommend it… peace be the journey…

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Week 22a – I choose to…

Although the MKMMA course is drawing to a close for this year the journey is just beginning. I’m no longer satisfied with being asleep at the helm of my ship… just drifting wherever the current takes me. I know where I want to go and I know I’m now heading in the right direction. I’m also very aware… when I let myself be taken off course. I can’t blame other people or events any more…

I choose to take responsibility for my life and make it the best I possibly can… influencing and helping others to do the same.

I choose not to be pulled in to the drama of others.

I choose to see just how far I can take this vision of mine.

I choose healthy and healing thoughts.

I choose to be discerning in how I expend my energy and to make sure I nourish my body, mind and soul.

I choose to share as much love and laughter as possible in my life.

I choose to stay on my solid ground in my world within whatever challenges I am faced with in life.

I choose to behave with integrity and kindness to all I encounter.

I choose to not take one moment for granted…

 

 

 

 

 

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Week 22 – Your final reward…

As I travel further a long this journey of self-discovery that is the MKMMA I feel so different and I see the world very differently. Things that used to be important hold no interest for me now. I am very clear about my priorities in life. I find myself getting stuff done and that feels good. I’m growing in confidence and with that my DMP actually feels very possible and not just a distant dream as it did when I first started reading it. I take life much more calmly these days. I take time to connect with people properly… well most of the time… 🙂

I look around and see people getting worked up about little things and I think of last week’s Master Key “Large ideas have a tendency to eliminate smaller ideas… this will remove innumerable petty and annoying obstacles from your path”. On the whole people look pretty stressed, distracted, unhappy… and yet we are so lucky and have so much available to us. But that used to me… not really happy… not really knowing why… not feeling fulfilled… and playing it safe.

Every day when I look at my card with my “dash” on it representing the time between my birth and death… and calculate that I have 39 summers left if I live to my desired age… every time I read that it really hits me… that’s a finite number… and not that big a number at that. When am I going to really step up… if not now… when?

I used to feel overwhelmed by the complexity of life… but it’s actually pretty simple when you come down to it. Am I going to show up today? If the answer is yes there’s a simplicity and directness about that… yes it requires courage… and letting go of limiting beliefs and behaviours and even relationships… but what’s the alternative?

“You can fool the whole world down the pathway of years, And get pats on the back as you pass, But your final reward will be heartaches and tears, If you’ve cheated the gal in the glass.”

Until next week…

 

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Week 21 – Comfort zones, courage & confidence…

So much has been coming together in my life recently. Comfort zones was the topic of a recent Webinar… how we try to avoid the feelings of fear, guilt, unworthiness, hurt feelings and anger by staying tucked up safe and sound in our comfort zones. Yup that has been me a lot of my life… maybe little forays here and there outside of my comfort zone in some adventurous sporting activity… but not really on a daily consistent basis… with the big things… not as a guiding principle in my life.

Opportunities have come up recently for me to step outside of my comfort zone in many different ways. It has been interesting as I’ve watched myself faced with these new challenges… something has changed in me… in my world within. I didn’t focus on all the reasons why I shouldn’t do it… or focus on all of my weaknesses and past failures that meant I was incapable of doing it or likely to fail… or just take so long to reply to the invitation that the opportunity had passed… at the same time convincing myself I didn’t really want to do it anyway and feeling relief that I didn’t have to put myself in an uncomfortable situation.

Yes something was different this time… less fear than there used to be as an initial reaction to the opportunity… and even a bit of excitement… wow that’s new. So I’ve taken a deep breath and said “Yup I’ll do it” with a bit of a lurch in my stomach but certainly not abject fear like the past. So I follow through on this new opportunity outside of my comfort zone… that will push or stretch me in some way… and before I know it… it’s done… it’s over… it really wasn’t that bad and I actually enjoyed parts of it. I feel on a bit of a high… I feel proud of myself… new feelings… that build confidence… and more courage for next time. It’s a positive cycle that builds on itself and gradually builds mastery…

Until next week…

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Week 20 – The truth…

The Master Key reading this week 21 says “The Truth shall make you free…”. Yes I know I’m writing my Week 20 blog now in week 21… I got behind that’s the truth. It has been a time of intense upheaval in so many different ways… concrete dropping off in slabs which is wonderful… but also destabilising. I’m coming out the other side now…

When we can live our truth… and not just play out the old blueprint… amazing things start to happen in life. But the transition period between leaving the old blueprint behind and fully embodying the new blueprint can feel like being a swimmer caught in an ocean rip. The old blueprint catches you unaware… with so much force… you are pulled along and cannot stop it… it’s scary and hard to think. The key to getting out of a rip in the ocean is not to panic… not to swim against it…  you’ll just wear yourself out and can drown that way. There are three options to getting out successfully:

The first option is to float with the rip until it peeters out and then you can swim back to shore letting the breaking waves assist you. But to do that you have to hold on to yourself as you are taken further and further away from shore. You have to trust that the rip will come to an end and then you can take action.

The second option (if you’re not a strong swimmer) is to raise your arm to call for help. Hopefully, you have chosen to swim on a patrolled beach and a life guard will rush to your assistance. When they get close to you with their life raft you can rest before making your way back to shore with their support.

The third option (if you are a strong swimmer) is to get out of the rip as soon as you feel it… you swim at right angles to the rip not directly against it and then catch some waves back to shore.

Which option you pick depends on how strong a swimmer you are, how much knowledge you have about rips and how to deal with them, how much you can go with the flow, trust that the rip will end and not panic… and whether help is available and you can ask for it.

I see this as a metaphor for the Master Key experience… as you negotiate the many rips of your old blueprint wanting to drag you out of the new life you are creating. Your guide is your life guard and mentor… and as you get more knowledge and experience in dealing with rips they get less scary over time… and then… one day you can actually see the rips in the ocean before you even get in the water. So you decide not to swim that day and go and have a relaxing coffee instead… just like negotiating life when you can see the dramas ahead and don’t need to get caught up in them anymore…

I will be writing again very soon…

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Week 19 – Now is all there is…

I notice the further along this Master Keys journey I go… I’m letting go… more and more… of trying to control every one else and the events of my life… I’m justifying myself less… and I’m less critical of myself and others. I’m looking inward more and more for answers. I feel more peace, surrender and appreciation for the many wonderful things I have in my life. I notice how much more pleasure I get out of a walk by the ocean these days… feeling the cool breeze on my skin after an oppressively hot day staying inside… smelling and feeling the sea spray as I walk… watching a tiny tot excitedly chase a seagull… licking the cool mint choc chip ice cream before it drips down my fingers. In the past I could have missed all of these delicious moments by being lost in my mind… cut off from the now… distracted and caught by negative thoughts and feelings about the past or future.

From this month’s Og reading “Why have I been allowed to live this extra day when others, far better than I, have departed?”… a much better way to live… to have gratitude for another day… instead of blindly taking it for granted. None of us know how long we are here for so we might as well make the most of it now… really all we have is now anyway… so we might as well enjoy it. A year or more ago if I had been asked the question “What would I do with my day if I knew this was the last day of my life?”… I probably would have replied… to fill up the day with as many “bucket list” activities as possible. Now I think I would just keep it simple… stay peaceful… stay loving… and “drink in” every experience… spending as much time as I could with my closest family and friends.

As I continue to “clear out” in all senses of the words… as I mentioned in last week’s blog and let things fall away… I am gradually left with the essentials. This makes it much easier for me to prioritise… as there isn’t lots of “noise” or clutter getting in the way… bogging me down… and complicating things… life is feeling much simpler… a clearer focus…

Until next week…

 

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Week 18 – Clearing out…

These last couple of weeks have been demanding and all over the shop. From the beginning of the course I have been really committed to my three times a day practice… but not recently. I have been out a lot… I feel all out of balance. This blog is late… I’ve lost my old rhythm… but haven’t found my new one yet. New experiences are happening which are challenging and exciting at the same time. I see myself doing something or saying something that I would not have done a year ago… so I know things are moving. But my old terms of reference are going too… which leaves me feeling quite lost and emotional at times. I’m feeling the need to cut life back to the essentials in all ways… to remove the clutter… literally clearing “stuff” out of the house, letting people and things go in my life and emotionally letting it all out…

A line from Og’s reading this month really struck me “So too, I will beat upon my heart with gratitude as I consider all who greeted yesterday’s sunrise who are no longer with the living today”. That puts things in to clear focus… today is a gift… we can’t count on tomorrow… many many individuals all over the world will not have tomorrow.  What am I going to do with this precious day? In this turbulent time I’m very grateful for my beautiful guide Dominica who brings new and interesting perspectives to anything we discuss in our group meetings and is so supportive too. I’m also very thankful for my mastermind partner… being accountable to someone has definitely pushed me along in areas I was neglecting.

Until next time…

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